GothGeek's Musings

I wonder what everyone at work is doing now... Is Niki still faithfully reading her Oprah Book of the Month Club Book (aka my blog)? How's Lori doing? What's Edith up to? I bet Mark and Sherry are swamped. How is Jay? How are Marsha and Clara?

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I miss everyone so much...

Today has been busy.

Well...things are going to be very busy for quite some time.

We got a rather late start - didn't get up until about 8:30. Still staying at mom and dad's at night, as we have no sleeping arrangements at the house yet. Besides, they feed us. LOL

Played DDR with Noel for a bit. We left around 10:45 to return the U-Haul. Got it there in plenty of time...we came around full circle - took the van back to the same company we rented from when we moved out to Oklahoma two years ago. They're the only place in town who takes them anymore.

Went to the house and cleaned up a bit. Around 1:00, +Kyle went out to Decatur to talk to Mr. Graham about the job at Lucky's. I stayed at the house, called to cancel all of our utilities and things in Oklahoma, and got some of the living room arranged. Mostly, it consisted of moving boxes out of the living room and into the second bedroom. I got the entertainment center set up, and was just getting the couch cleared off to move it when +Kyle came back around 2:30 or so. Good news - he does have the job, and starts tomorrow - 3:00 to 9:00 p.m. He will likely be working Sunday evenings, which means time and a half. Don't think there are any benefits involved, but this is a start.

Mom called and came out shortly afterward to clean while we unpacked boxes. I'm SO grateful she's helping with this...we have been going pretty much non-stop for over four days, and the house is enough of a disaster area that the thought of doing actual cleaning, much less unpacking stuff, is overly daunting. The house isn't UNCLEAN, per se, but it's rather dusty in places, and has that old house smell. We need plants badly, and probaby potpourri or candles until it gets that normal lived-in smell again.

Sidestep...
We're watching some TechTV show...Nerd Nation, I think... It's about Star Wars fans, and I cannot believe what kind of tragic lives these people lead. They don't call them fanatics for nothing...

Before Mom actually got there, I went out to get the utilities here put into our name. +Kyle hates dealing with the people at Athens Futilities...they're not *that* bad. That took some doing, but it's done. I just remembered I was supposed to get a smoke detector today, though... :P Have to do it tomorrow.

Went around to about 5 places and picked up applications, and by then it was nearly 5:00, so I thought it was time to get back to the house and help out. Let's see...within biking distance there are many places I would be willing to work, many more I don't really care to work, and several that appear to be 'family' businesses that wouldn't accept outside help. I'll put in apps in that order until I find something. Geekgrrl said there's a position open at the hospital...it's secretarial, but I bet they have health insurance. :P

We cleaned and unpacked until about 6:30. The living room is looking almost liveable, but we have to figure out what to do with the computer desks. I think a setup like what we had in Madill will be best, but one of us will have to face away from the TV. That's fine with me...I don't really watch it when I'm using the computer. If I'm going to watch something, I'll sit down and watch it, or work on a project on the couch while doing so.

Got showered and came back to the 'rents' house for dinner, stopping by Piggly Wiggly first to say hi to +Kyle's old co-workers. Only Kristie was on, and he "scared the crap" out of her while she was in the office, sneaking up behind her silently. She was bent over, reading some article, and he came up behind her and said, "That's cute." She jumped, and we were most amused. We got keys made for the house, too, as I needed copies.

Had hamburgers at mom and dad's, played more DDR with Noel - we killed ourselves - did laundry, and have been catching up with emails and blogging for much of the evening.

Now we need to gather edibles...it is quite late, but hey, at least The Dreaded Mart of Wal in Athens is actually open 24 hours a day...

So in the morning, I need to fill out applications and take them around, then pick up more within a reasonable biking distance from the house. I need to find a job quite soon. Don't really want one, but we have got to get caught up financially, and there are so many movies we want to see this summer. ^_^'>

Tired. Need to shop. But mostly need sleep.

For your entertainment...something that Ian said he sent me, but I apparantly never received:
Hello C'thulu

And something else he posted in his blog...it made me giggle until I hurt...
Why you should never post your picture on the internet

May 15th...

+Kyle wants to be leaving Oklahoma next weekend.

Words escape me...I never wanted to love this place...but now I don't want to leave.

...the mere thought of leaving has been tearing me apart inside for a long time.

...the realization that it is about to happen hasn't fully hit yet. I'm afraid of what's going to happen when it does.

+Kyle is driving me insane. He wants to be all comforting, but it's not working. I let him try, but I'm still numb to him a lot of the time. Maybe this time it's because he's the cause of the hurt. I know it's not intentional - he wants to do whatever's best for the both of us. But that doesn't make it hurt any less. It doesn't make me want to let him try to help me...quite the opposite. When you get burned, you pull your hand out of the fire...not roll around in it.

What happened to waiting to move until I was a little more stable, mentally and emotionally? What happened to him working here until we had the money to move on our own? He says it's because he has a good job opportunity. Guy won't hire him over the phone. I am really uncomfortable with this whole "Well, it looks good, but he wants to talk to me in person" thing. I told +Kyle two weeks ago when I agreed to stay until he finished school that I wasn't leaving this state until he had a job lined up FOR CERTAIN, and a place to stay. Maybe it's a test of faith, but it's really hard to trust *anyone* right now, especially someone who has been so manipulative and so hurtful for so long. All I can see is one more case of him making a decision FOR us and it's hurting. I hope I can look back at some point and realize that it wasn't really like that, but from this side........

I want to cry, but I have been pretty much all day, so I'm tired...but I'm also jittery because I've been into the coffee at work all day. Not smart in my current condition, but...I don't care about much of anything right now.

So anyway, I told Mark & Sherry that +Kyle was ready to go, and they said the 12th should be my last day. I can't even give them a two week notice. They haven't been the greatest of bosses I've had, but they've been wonderful, and I feel like eleven kinds of awful for not being allowed this courtesy.

Called Nancy this afternoon. She said she should have everything finished in plenty of time. I said it was okay if she didn't, because everything fits right, and I don't mind paying to have it shipped if she can't get to it. But she's sure she will, so with any luck, this weekend we'll have it done. She was sorry we won't get to play in her garden together this summer. I am, too. She wished us well. I thanked her and Jim for being so great to us - so much like family.

Am trying to look forward to this weekend, but knowing it's the last time we're going to see so many dear friends (at least until we come back for a visit, and who knows when that will be?) is making that very hard.

Am also feeling bad that I am not looking forward to seeing everyone as much as it seems like I should. Yeah, I miss Ian and the rest of the family, Gamegod & Geekgrrl, Desireah, Logan, and all the rest...I don't really understand this right now.

Thank you, Niki, for the hug today. I love you, too.

...and yes...I'm aware that this is just another whinefest... Here, have some cheese, too...

From the illustrious Niki!

Niki: "You know what they say about guys with big feet..."

Me: "Ahh...yeah..."

Niki: "They gotta wear big shoes."

I hurt myself laughing. She's just not right, but I love her.

It's Tuesday, and I'm actually in a good mood. I wonder why. :P

This morning was interesting. I was making the rounds, saying good morning, and J.B., the ad rep who's replacing Shelly (she's going baaaaaack to schooool!) said, "I recognize that greeting!" It's his second day, and I haven't been sure about how we'd get along. Shelly and I have a rapport. I can come into her office yelling, "You CRACKHEAD, what is *this* supposed to mean???", reference some chicken scratch note she's left me, and she can say, "You're the one on the crackpipe, chick, you've got it upside down" or some such, and we laugh. It's hard to say if you can do that to the new person.

J.B. is older - like over 50 older. Normally I get along famously with people of any age, and usually I can read people and get a feel for them, but I just hadn't really tried to yet. I think we're going to get along well, though. It turns out his (first) wife, and mother of his children was Japanese (raised in Hawaii). They met in Guam just after WWII. He's done a lot, been everywhere, and seems to have a lot of good stories. He did say that he was from Oklahoma, and had left many times, but always came back. A sense of impending dread hung over me at that point. :P

So anyway, he was intrigued by my study of the language, and even tried to remember a few words, himself. ^_^ I doubt I have a new study buddy, but maybe a kindred spirit.

He's pretty cool, and not threatened at all by my dress. Matter of fact, he says he has a nephew that I'd get along well with (drummer in a punk band). LOL! Go figure. He also mentioned a nephew who does graphic design for Fossil (you know...awesome watches with some of the best retro designs ever?), but I don't know if they're the same person.

Got through the day without killing anyone...myself included. MAN, did I want a soda all day. I am trying very hard to wean myself of non-water products this year. I'm not one of these "oooh, aspartame BAD, give you CANCER" types, but water is just better all around. And yeah, it gets boring, but I have low-carb milk now, so I can have a *notbadforme* treat now and again.

I did really well over the hols. I had to weigh some packages to mail, and the only thing I have is the bathroom scale. It doesn't do well with small amounts, so the best way is to weigh myself, then weigh myself with the box. Not the most accurate, but it gets pretty close. I was dead on at 135 with shoes, so if there were any holiday gains, they went away.

I needed to have worked out today, but it's SO hard to get motivated when it's cold. :P We have a space heater, but it takes forever to heat the room with it, and they're SO expensive to run. I wish the weight machine would fit in the living room with the gas heater. :P What it comes down to is I just need to get off my lazy butt and do it. I'll get warm during the workout and stay that way for awhile if I don't break a sweat and have it freeze on my skin. :P It's too late tonight, since I have work in the morning. I usually don't feel like it after throwing bundles of newspapers on Wednesday, but I could at least do a lower-body workout.

Have started on Kare Kano again. I'd forgotten what a sweet, sweet story it really is. Of course, Yukino's mania is a compelling way to start the series, but I've always thought it'd be nice to have an Arima in my life.

And hey, even +Kyle likes it so far. He's going to get annoyed with all the re-caps, I'm sure, but, ehh...