Glad we got that sorted out
Mar. 19th, 2004 07:51 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lsdiamondSo I had no idea that +Kyle was just playing around yesterday. I come back to the house at lunch - got a little eyeshadow on, nothing major. I've "cut back" significantly since +Kyle made such a fuss over the whole thing, but I never said I'd stop. So he looks at me, and he has this weird frowning sort of smile that I can't decipher. I say so, and ask what's wrong.
"Take a wild guess. Why all this?" He's really serious sounding, so I get a little upset, being as I haven't worn it for a few days, just because he prefers me that way.
"I felt like it today." I don't remember what he said, but I reply something to the effect of, "You're not at work with me, you don't have to see it."
"So does this mean you should be worried about what I do when you're not around?" I think is about what he said. I asked what he was doing when I wasn't around that I should be worried about, and he said something about it being the same thing...to be fair.
Trying to lighten the tension, I kid around, asking what it is he's doing while I'm not around. Oops. *He* thought *I* was serious.
We talked it over last night before bed, and everything's sorted out, but good heavens. I will be so glad when we get past this whole trying-to-learn-to-communicate-again phase, because it's so bloody confusing.
I told him last night I've been afraid he's going to be some kind of control freak, but he said that's exactly what he doesn't want, because he still feels like he's losing me and that will just drive me away.
We talked about friends and getting along. I'm not really comfortable around his friends. Not that he really has more than one that he *calls* 'friend', but I think of the others are more than acquaintances, so I'd call them friends, too. That's just me. Anyway, I tried to explain that my friends are all pretty loud and flamboyant, and call attention to themselves, and that he's just not that kind of person. He's reserved, and likes to stay in the background. I told him I'm more concerned about HIS being comfortable than in whether I'm going out for a "girls' night out".
I don't know why Lori invited him along tonight - probably just being nice, since they don't really know each other, and we're leaving in less than two months. I don't know if he'll go or not, but I did try to impress upon him that it's not a matter of whether I *want* him to or not, but his comfort level.
I guess we'll see!
"Take a wild guess. Why all this?" He's really serious sounding, so I get a little upset, being as I haven't worn it for a few days, just because he prefers me that way.
"I felt like it today." I don't remember what he said, but I reply something to the effect of, "You're not at work with me, you don't have to see it."
"So does this mean you should be worried about what I do when you're not around?" I think is about what he said. I asked what he was doing when I wasn't around that I should be worried about, and he said something about it being the same thing...to be fair.
Trying to lighten the tension, I kid around, asking what it is he's doing while I'm not around. Oops. *He* thought *I* was serious.
We talked it over last night before bed, and everything's sorted out, but good heavens. I will be so glad when we get past this whole trying-to-learn-to-communicate-again phase, because it's so bloody confusing.
I told him last night I've been afraid he's going to be some kind of control freak, but he said that's exactly what he doesn't want, because he still feels like he's losing me and that will just drive me away.
We talked about friends and getting along. I'm not really comfortable around his friends. Not that he really has more than one that he *calls* 'friend', but I think of the others are more than acquaintances, so I'd call them friends, too. That's just me. Anyway, I tried to explain that my friends are all pretty loud and flamboyant, and call attention to themselves, and that he's just not that kind of person. He's reserved, and likes to stay in the background. I told him I'm more concerned about HIS being comfortable than in whether I'm going out for a "girls' night out".
I don't know why Lori invited him along tonight - probably just being nice, since they don't really know each other, and we're leaving in less than two months. I don't know if he'll go or not, but I did try to impress upon him that it's not a matter of whether I *want* him to or not, but his comfort level.
I guess we'll see!
