Sigh.

I miss not even having a "hi" on Yahoo chat these days. It's everyone,
too...few of my friends keep as late hours as I. Alyce is usually up later
than anyone else, so I often get to talk to her on my nights off. I miss
cougs and Micah and Trish, too, though...and of course one other.

Lots and lots to think about with Ryan these days. I'm not sure where I am
in this. I need to respond to his email, but I need to think about it more.

Nancy hasn't written me back. She usually replies within 48 hours.
Granted, it's summer, and that probably (I hope) has a lot to do with
it...busy in the garden and whatnot. But there's that part of me that goes,
"I've offended her somehow, and she's too mad to speak."

I was reading Proverbs today, and there's a lot of stuff about adulterous
women. How they lead to death, and such. I wonder if perhaps this forced
and complete separation is more for his sake than mine...if I'm a path to
death, that's not a road he needs to take. Doesn't make it any more
pleasant, but it's a bit more comforting to think that perhaps this will
help him find the right way. It's always been my prayer, although I thought
for a long time I would be more instrumental in that. I guess I screwed
that opportunity up, though.