Reasoning

Naturally, there is a reason for all things.

I don't know if this is *the* reason we were supposed to stay past noon today, but it is definitely *a* reason.

Logan came by to visit this evening. Ian, +Kyle and I skipped out on church to visit with him, and it turned out to be one of the most incredible evenings. Of course, we had fun conversation, and remembering of good times. He seems to be in a strange place right now, and it's one of those places where we were about two years ago. He wants to move out, and he's old enough, but he's not quite sure he's ready to commit to such a big decision. He doesn't really seem to know what he wants to do, but did admit to having had a dream ever since he was a little kid: to work on cars, particularly restoration of old vehicles. I think he called it a frame build, or something like that. He wants to take old cars, fix them up from the inside out, and end up with a good product that he can point to and say, "I made that." We all exhorted him to pursue this desire. It could turn him to something he really wants to do, or it could show him that it's not really "for" him. +Kyle especially shared how he made a list (of things he thought he'd enjoy doing) two years ago, and began crossing things off one by one. The last thing left on his list was gunsmithing, and so he went with it. Now, he's almost out of school, and he's absolutely loving it, and looking forward to getting out there and *doing* something with it.

He feels this need to do what his parents want him to do, but he recognizes that he won't be happy that way. I was able to share that which I have struggled with for so long, and only after years of trying to please everyone else finally came to the realization that I was miserable. Be true to thyself, essentially.

Ian gave him the Calhoun course book, and marked some of the auto courses, just as something for him to look into. He's not sure that college is 'for' him either, but we assured him that he could simply take those courses he wanted to, and not worry too much about things like gen eds. He's so worried about not being smart enough to do what he wants to do. We did explain to him that there are different *types* of intelligence. For instance, +Kyle and I may be able to look at computers and fix them, but a car engine? Beyond us. Logan, on the other hand, fixed something in five minutes that would have taken his father an hour. He has a vast intelligence when it comes to cars, and we're encouraging him to use it.

He also mentioned a love of tattooing. He's done some work on his dad, and really enjoys that as well. He may have a combination of work in front of him if he'll commit to that decision to just decide.

As is our wont when we get together with Logan, the topic eventually turned to the spiritual. We probably talked about nearly everything, but some of the more poignant moments included things such as:

Perspective: the Truman Show allegory

( Why are we here? )

( If we're made in the image of God, and God is a spiritual creature, why are we spirit enclosed in flesh? )

( Lucifer: Before or After Creation? )

( How big is the Universe? )

( How important *is* baptism, and is it really necessary for salvation? )

All in all it was an interesting night. When we had gone to bed, +Kyle said that when he first started looking at JC's as a potential job, he was really hoping for the Pennsylvania job instead...but now that he's spent so much time with friends and family, he has transferred that desire to the JC's job instead. I'm glad...relieved...to learn this, but also a little scared by it. After so long of wanting to get back closer to family, (but knowing we would probably be even farther away due to his work), I'm afraid to get my hopes up. Is this a lack of faith on my part? I'm not sure. I just know I'm nervous.