Strength Training, Agility & Leanness
Mar. 8th, 1999 04:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lsdiamond3:30pm Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I’m sitting at the Huntsville Public Library right now, listening to a tape of a band called “Rodan”. They’re just screaming & playing the drums really loudly. The first song on this tape was a quiet instrumental--if there are any more, I will keep the tape. If not, ah well--another one to tape onto! :)
Tomorrow I will be officially starting my new workout schedule. I have done each different program on & off for 2 weeks, to test them out & see what I need to start out with. I think the lighter Day 1&2 Program will work out better. The CHISEL program is so intense--I was sore for 2 days!! And I have not tried the AbSolution program yet. It looks simple enough, but I may be surprised!!!
I am really looking forward to getting back into training. I have missed the feeling of accomplishment, and the way my body looked when I was doing it back in ‘95-96. I started mid-summer ‘95, and by Halloween of that year, I already looked better than I have since I was a skinny 3 year old!!! I hope to be able to do that again, and even surpass what I started 3 years ago. Scratch that. I PLAN to be able to surpass what I started 3 years ago. I realise that it may take longer, since I do not have time or ready access to heavy weight equipment. But, mom & dad are cleaning their garage, and moving the screenprinting stuff into another building--so perhaps I can do a little heavier workout on Sundays, once I get used to a lighter regimen. I am not telling Ryan that I’m starting a workout program again. I have hinted at it a couple times--my shin muscles, for example, bulge a bit more than I remembered them doing. My shoulders and forearm muscles have already reacted positively to the little training I have done for 2 weeks. My right arm is still very weak. When I make a muscle, it is not very hard, and it is very small. It is harder to lift with my right arm. I think it will always be kindof weak, but it will get stronger as time goes on.
My regimen will go on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and 2 of the 3 days of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, depending on the schedule. Likely it will be Fri. & Sat, but if I get to use mom’s equipment, it will be Fri. or Sat & Sun. I will write about the workout itself, my feelings of the day, and my temptations, goals, and accomplishments as they happen. I may not write every day, but I am going to try.
I will also write about Spiritual things, as I study my Bible and learn more. Today ,for instance, I found the tape of Ryan’s father’s funeral. I cried as I listened to it, today, and I though about death and what was in store. I read some in the Bible about what comes after we die, and was somewhat comforted. I still try not to think about losing my parents, or Ryan, or friends, but I know it will happen someday. I pray it is not for many many years though. I can’t bear the thought of having to go on without my dear husband, or my daddy, or even mom. I still don’t always get along with mom. I think she is doing better ,but she still says things that I don’t like, and I tend to resent her for them. She wants me to go to church more, I know--on the one hand, I don’t see the big problem with only going on Sunday morning--or only on Sundays at all! After all, we are in school, and can’t make it for most Wednesdays out of the year. She wonders, though, when we don’t make it the Wednesdays that we are out of school for Spring Break. Part of it is the drive. Part of it is the fact that neither of us gets much out of church. I used to like singing, and I like listening to Kasey preach, but crying babies annoy me, and the fact that I probably don’t know half of the people who are attending Sandlin Road right now bothers me, and I have just about always found church to be BORING..... I think God intended us to enjoy worshipping Him--not to find it a chore.
I talk with God a lot. I don’t always sing songs about God, or read books about God, or play games about God, or think about God 24/7, but I think I am doing better, now that I make some effort to study His word. (I still don’t study every day, like I know I should, but I *am* doing better. I want to do something to bring people to Him. Sometimes, I don’t feel saved. Sometimes, I worry that I will go to hell even though I am a Christian. I don’t always live like one, and that worries me. I’m not perfect! I still sin! I try and be a good influence everywhere I am, and I try to “be good”, but I know that isn’t enough. I would like to put a Bible study on-line, or get in an email/chat session with people like Ryan does. But I don’t have time. I am just too busy! What a poor excuse that is, I know. I should make time. But what time do I have to make? I work 6-4 Tu., Th. & Fri. I come here, then go to school Mon. & Wed, and Sat is really Ryan’s & my only day to be together. Usually it is spent catching up on missed sleep, and making love enough to more than make up for the weekdays we missed. Sometimes we go to a movie, or the mall, or do our shopping, or just clean house all afternoon, but we do it all TOGETHER. Should I give up my husband and my only “free” day to work? I know Sunday is our day of rest, but frankly, going to church, spending the afternoon with my parents, and putting up with the boys is enough to make us just wanna veg for the evening!!! Then it’s a reasonable bedtime to prepare for the upcoming week. tough stuff! So here I am... lost in thoughts and wondering what to do with my life, and my time. The house is a wreck. There are many projects I WANT to do. I have school to think about. I have started this new workout--obviously that is important enough to me to make time for. How does that make God feel? Sad I’m sure.
Therefore, I make a new plan. Before I do my workout, I will do my devo. I will pray that God will allow my body to become shaped by the workout I am about to perform. I will pray that God will allow my mind and heart to become shaped by His words, and I will become a more beautiful Christian, as well as a more beautiful body. I will pray that one day Ryan will notice my body changing, and be pleased. I will pray for stronger muscles and stronger willpower against the wiles of Satan, and the temptations of the world. I am confident that within 1 month, I will notice changes in my physique, and in my spirituality. I pray they will be changes that others notice, as well. 4:09pm
Tomorrow I will be officially starting my new workout schedule. I have done each different program on & off for 2 weeks, to test them out & see what I need to start out with. I think the lighter Day 1&2 Program will work out better. The CHISEL program is so intense--I was sore for 2 days!! And I have not tried the AbSolution program yet. It looks simple enough, but I may be surprised!!!
I am really looking forward to getting back into training. I have missed the feeling of accomplishment, and the way my body looked when I was doing it back in ‘95-96. I started mid-summer ‘95, and by Halloween of that year, I already looked better than I have since I was a skinny 3 year old!!! I hope to be able to do that again, and even surpass what I started 3 years ago. Scratch that. I PLAN to be able to surpass what I started 3 years ago. I realise that it may take longer, since I do not have time or ready access to heavy weight equipment. But, mom & dad are cleaning their garage, and moving the screenprinting stuff into another building--so perhaps I can do a little heavier workout on Sundays, once I get used to a lighter regimen. I am not telling Ryan that I’m starting a workout program again. I have hinted at it a couple times--my shin muscles, for example, bulge a bit more than I remembered them doing. My shoulders and forearm muscles have already reacted positively to the little training I have done for 2 weeks. My right arm is still very weak. When I make a muscle, it is not very hard, and it is very small. It is harder to lift with my right arm. I think it will always be kindof weak, but it will get stronger as time goes on.
My regimen will go on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and 2 of the 3 days of Friday, Saturday, and Sunday, depending on the schedule. Likely it will be Fri. & Sat, but if I get to use mom’s equipment, it will be Fri. or Sat & Sun. I will write about the workout itself, my feelings of the day, and my temptations, goals, and accomplishments as they happen. I may not write every day, but I am going to try.
I will also write about Spiritual things, as I study my Bible and learn more. Today ,for instance, I found the tape of Ryan’s father’s funeral. I cried as I listened to it, today, and I though about death and what was in store. I read some in the Bible about what comes after we die, and was somewhat comforted. I still try not to think about losing my parents, or Ryan, or friends, but I know it will happen someday. I pray it is not for many many years though. I can’t bear the thought of having to go on without my dear husband, or my daddy, or even mom. I still don’t always get along with mom. I think she is doing better ,but she still says things that I don’t like, and I tend to resent her for them. She wants me to go to church more, I know--on the one hand, I don’t see the big problem with only going on Sunday morning--or only on Sundays at all! After all, we are in school, and can’t make it for most Wednesdays out of the year. She wonders, though, when we don’t make it the Wednesdays that we are out of school for Spring Break. Part of it is the drive. Part of it is the fact that neither of us gets much out of church. I used to like singing, and I like listening to Kasey preach, but crying babies annoy me, and the fact that I probably don’t know half of the people who are attending Sandlin Road right now bothers me, and I have just about always found church to be BORING..... I think God intended us to enjoy worshipping Him--not to find it a chore.
I talk with God a lot. I don’t always sing songs about God, or read books about God, or play games about God, or think about God 24/7, but I think I am doing better, now that I make some effort to study His word. (I still don’t study every day, like I know I should, but I *am* doing better. I want to do something to bring people to Him. Sometimes, I don’t feel saved. Sometimes, I worry that I will go to hell even though I am a Christian. I don’t always live like one, and that worries me. I’m not perfect! I still sin! I try and be a good influence everywhere I am, and I try to “be good”, but I know that isn’t enough. I would like to put a Bible study on-line, or get in an email/chat session with people like Ryan does. But I don’t have time. I am just too busy! What a poor excuse that is, I know. I should make time. But what time do I have to make? I work 6-4 Tu., Th. & Fri. I come here, then go to school Mon. & Wed, and Sat is really Ryan’s & my only day to be together. Usually it is spent catching up on missed sleep, and making love enough to more than make up for the weekdays we missed. Sometimes we go to a movie, or the mall, or do our shopping, or just clean house all afternoon, but we do it all TOGETHER. Should I give up my husband and my only “free” day to work? I know Sunday is our day of rest, but frankly, going to church, spending the afternoon with my parents, and putting up with the boys is enough to make us just wanna veg for the evening!!! Then it’s a reasonable bedtime to prepare for the upcoming week. tough stuff! So here I am... lost in thoughts and wondering what to do with my life, and my time. The house is a wreck. There are many projects I WANT to do. I have school to think about. I have started this new workout--obviously that is important enough to me to make time for. How does that make God feel? Sad I’m sure.
Therefore, I make a new plan. Before I do my workout, I will do my devo. I will pray that God will allow my body to become shaped by the workout I am about to perform. I will pray that God will allow my mind and heart to become shaped by His words, and I will become a more beautiful Christian, as well as a more beautiful body. I will pray that one day Ryan will notice my body changing, and be pleased. I will pray for stronger muscles and stronger willpower against the wiles of Satan, and the temptations of the world. I am confident that within 1 month, I will notice changes in my physique, and in my spirituality. I pray they will be changes that others notice, as well. 4:09pm
