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Apr. 19th, 2002 11:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lsdiamondSo it's not Saturday...that's ok. I needed shorts to wear to the shop today. Printing is a VERY hot job, and the weather outside is already warming up quite a bit, so I dug through the drawers today to find anything useable.
I'm currently wearing a size 34 pair. That amazes me to no end. I can hardly wait to go through my jeans tomorrow and find out if I can wear anything else.
These are by no means comfortable. There's a long way to go before they don't pinch or bulge in places. But the mere fact that I can button them without lying down speaks volumes.
+Kyle still isn't thrilled with the whole idea. He's all 'I just don't think it's that big a deal' and 'I'm not going to have anything to hold on to' (meaning when he puts an arm around me at the mall or some such - get your mind out of the gutter. =) I can understand that. Frankly, I'm grateful for it, because it means that he really does find me attractive. Even so, I would like some support in this effort. He may love me the way I am, but I don't love me the way I am. How can I say what he wants me to say when he asks if I know I'm beautiful if I don't believe it myself?
We got into a bit of a tiff at the store last night because I was getting low point foods for me. Decided to try some FF/SF pudding to see if it was edible, and he picked up the box and started reading it off in that singsong-y mocking way. The dialog went like this:
Me: Are you going to be supportive of me in this or are you going to keep making fun of the decisions I'm making?
Him: Well, all this fat free and low calorie stuff isn't as good as the real thing.
Me: I know. But it's not like I have to do this forever. (Meanwhile thinking, 'but I will if that's what it takes to stay the weight I need to be')
Him: I just don't think it's that big of a deal.
Me: That's fine - it's a big deal to me.
Him: Well, fine, I'll just shut up about the whole thing.
Me: I'm not asking you to shut up. I'm just asking you to stop making fun of me for it. (A slight exaggeration, as he hasn't actually targeted me personally.)
Him: Silence, then change of subject.
He must have thought it over somewhat because we talked about it more today. I made cinnamon biscuits (from a can) for him at his request. He was eating them as we drove to work, and said:
Him: You can have some of these if you want them, you know.
Me: Thank you, but I'll hold off on those. They're not worth eating on the program I'm on.
Him: Why?
Me: Well, foods are all given point values based on calories, fat and fiber. Some foods have a high point value, and some have a low point value. Now, you can either have a few foods with high point value or have a lot of foods with low point values throughout the day. I would just rather eat a lot of low point foods throughout the day and have a decent dinner (with you) than 3 high point meals. I've read several articles on how it's better to eat light over a whole day than having 3 "square meals".
Him: (sounding more interested) Yeah, I've read some of the same things. Is this something you're going to stick with?
Me: Well, I made myself do it for a month, and tomorrow's the last day. I've been trying on all the jeans I can't wear every two weeks to see if they fit, and already added 2 pairs to my wardrobe. Tomorrow I'll do it again. I'm going to continue doing this for awhile if it's still working.
Him: Well what size are you wearing now?
Me: 34
Him: And what were you wearing before?
Me: 38
Him: That's the same size I wear.
I forget what happened then, but it just sort of trailed off, and then we got stuck behind some ridiculously slow traffic which made us both late. x_X
I don't think it's a program he'll join me on. He's talked about needing to lose some weight, and it's true he could come down 10 or 20 lbs, but then again, he's not in as bad shape as I am. He'd rather do it with exercise only, and not a change of diet. I really need to explain to him that I haven't really changed my diet that much - just been a little more careful about how much I'm actually eating. Maybe the opportunity will come up soon. It's just certain things that I'm changing - snacky stuff, mostly, which I do admittedly indulge in quite a bit. But instead of Ritz cheese crackers, I'll have pretzels and an apple. Maybe if I get some other "normal" snack foods and just eat them carefully, he will see that it's not so bad. ^_^'>
I'm currently wearing a size 34 pair. That amazes me to no end. I can hardly wait to go through my jeans tomorrow and find out if I can wear anything else.
These are by no means comfortable. There's a long way to go before they don't pinch or bulge in places. But the mere fact that I can button them without lying down speaks volumes.
+Kyle still isn't thrilled with the whole idea. He's all 'I just don't think it's that big a deal' and 'I'm not going to have anything to hold on to' (meaning when he puts an arm around me at the mall or some such - get your mind out of the gutter. =) I can understand that. Frankly, I'm grateful for it, because it means that he really does find me attractive. Even so, I would like some support in this effort. He may love me the way I am, but I don't love me the way I am. How can I say what he wants me to say when he asks if I know I'm beautiful if I don't believe it myself?
We got into a bit of a tiff at the store last night because I was getting low point foods for me. Decided to try some FF/SF pudding to see if it was edible, and he picked up the box and started reading it off in that singsong-y mocking way. The dialog went like this:
Me: Are you going to be supportive of me in this or are you going to keep making fun of the decisions I'm making?
Him: Well, all this fat free and low calorie stuff isn't as good as the real thing.
Me: I know. But it's not like I have to do this forever. (Meanwhile thinking, 'but I will if that's what it takes to stay the weight I need to be')
Him: I just don't think it's that big of a deal.
Me: That's fine - it's a big deal to me.
Him: Well, fine, I'll just shut up about the whole thing.
Me: I'm not asking you to shut up. I'm just asking you to stop making fun of me for it. (A slight exaggeration, as he hasn't actually targeted me personally.)
Him: Silence, then change of subject.
He must have thought it over somewhat because we talked about it more today. I made cinnamon biscuits (from a can) for him at his request. He was eating them as we drove to work, and said:
Him: You can have some of these if you want them, you know.
Me: Thank you, but I'll hold off on those. They're not worth eating on the program I'm on.
Him: Why?
Me: Well, foods are all given point values based on calories, fat and fiber. Some foods have a high point value, and some have a low point value. Now, you can either have a few foods with high point value or have a lot of foods with low point values throughout the day. I would just rather eat a lot of low point foods throughout the day and have a decent dinner (with you) than 3 high point meals. I've read several articles on how it's better to eat light over a whole day than having 3 "square meals".
Him: (sounding more interested) Yeah, I've read some of the same things. Is this something you're going to stick with?
Me: Well, I made myself do it for a month, and tomorrow's the last day. I've been trying on all the jeans I can't wear every two weeks to see if they fit, and already added 2 pairs to my wardrobe. Tomorrow I'll do it again. I'm going to continue doing this for awhile if it's still working.
Him: Well what size are you wearing now?
Me: 34
Him: And what were you wearing before?
Me: 38
Him: That's the same size I wear.
I forget what happened then, but it just sort of trailed off, and then we got stuck behind some ridiculously slow traffic which made us both late. x_X
I don't think it's a program he'll join me on. He's talked about needing to lose some weight, and it's true he could come down 10 or 20 lbs, but then again, he's not in as bad shape as I am. He'd rather do it with exercise only, and not a change of diet. I really need to explain to him that I haven't really changed my diet that much - just been a little more careful about how much I'm actually eating. Maybe the opportunity will come up soon. It's just certain things that I'm changing - snacky stuff, mostly, which I do admittedly indulge in quite a bit. But instead of Ritz cheese crackers, I'll have pretzels and an apple. Maybe if I get some other "normal" snack foods and just eat them carefully, he will see that it's not so bad. ^_^'>
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