*cry*

Dear God, I hate being an empath sometimes.

That's not really true. I love people so much. I love...need...to relate to them. There's nothing more satisfying than helping someone who's having a rough time. It's special to be there for someone who needs you. It's different than being the provider of all needs. I wouldn't say it's any more important, but it's what I'm made to do. It fits me better than does 'breadwinner'.

I've been given just the thing to get me out of this pathetic funk I've been in for so long. The Voice was right...all I had to do was ask.

All the same...it hurts to be in such pain for someone, especially knowing that truly all you can do is be there to listen if they need you. It's hard to be limited in that way.

It hurts to have been there, to hear their words and be reminded of dark days, some not so long ago. I can only hope to be a light, and pray for strength to be what I must.

Quotes, and the day in general

I've neglected to mention that we have a new ad manager as of yesterday. Her name is Niki. She's 25, married, and has two kids. She likes to talk, and laughs at everything. It's too soon to know if that's endearing or annoying, but I like her so far. She's personable, which is vital to the job, and seems to enjoy what she's doing, so we'll see how it goes.

I had to go to the bank today, and got Billie at the teller window. She's a doll, and told me she's really going to miss me when I move. ^_^ How sweet! I'm going to miss her, too, actually. She's so cute and funny. She'd be the cool grandma.

She said she was talking to Mark the other day, and that he spoke highly of me. I feel weird about that - about any time that I hear people have been talking about me. It's not paranoia so much as it's, "why are people bothering to talk about *me* of all the possible topics?" I dunno...it's just weird for me. I wonder if other people feel weird when I mention that I've talked about them to someone.

Anyway, it's always nice to know that what was said was positive.

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Humorous Quotes of the day!

On Jon asking Mark to come over and look at a photo:
Mark: "Okay, but hurry up, because Ariel needs me for something and she's more important than you are."

On a photo named "Gambel with dead pig"
Me: "So who wins? The gambler or the dead pig?
Lori: "If you can't beat a dead pig, then you don't need to be gambling"

On a particular group of stupid individuals:
Lori: "Yeah, they're all worthless in their own special ways."

On trying to get in a word edgewise:
Me: "Well, I'm trying to tell you, Lori, but you won't shut up. (laughing)"
Mark: "Asking Lori to shut up? That's like taking someone off heroin!"