I'm feeling better today...well, now I am, anyway

I let +Kyle sleep in today while I folded the laundry that got washed Sunday. While I was collecting hangers from the closet, he woke up, so I stopped and laid down with him so we could cuddle a bit. That was nice, up until these blasted chest spasms got really bad. He just started rubbing my back, trying to feel where the tense spots were. I can honestly say I've never been in more pain before today. The spasms move around my right side, sometimes in front, just below my breast, sometimes on the side, and sometimes in the back. He kept trying to make me let him stop, but it really was helping, in spite of the, well, agony. ^_^'> Have you ever bitten into your own hand to try and distract yourself from the hurting elsewhere? After about 10 minutes of it, I let him stop, and it really had relaxed the muscles. I can breathe deeper now than I've been able to in nearly a month. Still taking the calcium supplements, of course, but I'm spacing them out through the day rather than taking them all at once in the morning. It seems to be helping more this way.

My ear still hasn't popped. It's really getting annoying. I can (mostly) hear fine, but this 'full' feeling is really uncomfortable, especially when I'm trying to get to sleep.

We went to Windmill this evening to get some brandy since it's been helping me so much at night. Gosh that stuff is expensive. I would have liked Apple, but Peach was the cheapest they had, so I guess it's more peach fire for me.

We also went to the mall. The place is dying so badly. Same old stores, same old junk in 'em. It's really a bore these days. I did find the X-Com trilogy for $10. Now I need $10. LOL Maybe when I finish with this plush I can get it.

Ah well... enough talk for now ^_^ I'm almost finished with 2 of the 6 customs I'm working on. Can't wait to see how the Windy Wing comes out. Need inkjet transparencies. *makes note*

Could this be any more me?

You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to "All things bright and beautiful". This personifies a caring person... A person who "needs" and indeed "needs to be needed".

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly .... far slower than you anticipated and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place ..... In spite of the fact that you feel like "giving up"...don't...Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression "All's well that ends well" will have an extra special meaning for you

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high. But even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst... this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities ... like running.. swimming, whatever.There must be some favourite past time, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion ... In fact you just don't want to be involved in any arguments of any shape or form ... All you want is for "them" to get on with it - and to leave you alone..

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I'm tired of hurting. -_-

Surely to goodness I'm getting enough calcium by now. I'm taking 1200 mg a day, plus approx. 2 glasses of milk, plus any other calcium that may come in foods I eat. That's definitely over the USRDA recommended dose. These muscle spasms actually feel worse today. Maybe I'm not getting enough magnesium with it. I thought they were spreading to the left side, but it was thankfully just a breathing stitch.

I may sleep on the couch tonight. Took a nap today and found a position that didn't aggravate the coughing or the spasms. I don't really want to, because I hate sleeping alone...but it may be the only thing.

I'm so sick of this. Only 2 days of meds left, and I'm still hacking. I really hope it goes away within the next 48 hours. We can't afford for me to go back to the doctor's office, and I really don't want to ask my parents for more help with it. They're doing well this year, but not surely not well enough to keep spending $130 on me every 2 weeks.