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Starting Over
I went to Wal-Mart last night. Decided it was time for a change.
I bought:
the palest foundation possible
black eyeliner (2 packs by mistake)
tweezers (yes, another pair - these STAY in my makeup bag!)
eyeshadow applicators
Passion Flower Conditioner
Beef Jerky
When I got home from work, I washed my hair and did my dreads - only 7 this time. They're messy as usual, but not to worry...I have hats and bandannas for that very reason.
I'm now doing my self-medication of gothing up. There are conditions. I'm also restarting Induction. Two weeks. Period. Today is Day Two. I'm going to work out tonight since the weather's cool...don't know how long it will last, so I need to take advantage of it.
The point of this all is that I have four months to look fabulous. It can be done, but it's going to take serious work on my part. I don't necessarily want to have or need an entirely new wardrobe by then, but there should be a marked difference in my appearance from last year. (Truth be told, there already is, but I want people to stop and make sure that's really me.) I'm still blubbery, and that needs to go away.
In the meantime, I have asked for help in a lot of areas. I asked for a refreshing of the Spirit, and also for a new desire to give. It's more blessed to give than to receive, right? Well, I've been giving all this time and haven't felt very blessed. I've been giving *grudgingly*...because I've felt forced into it. I want to give because I want to, and naturally, desire, nay, expect, to receive the blessings promised because of it. I don't see anything wrong with this - a promise is made, and that's an exercise in faith that the promise will be fulfilled...provided I do my part.
So that's where I am for today...
I bought:
the palest foundation possible
black eyeliner (2 packs by mistake)
tweezers (yes, another pair - these STAY in my makeup bag!)
eyeshadow applicators
Passion Flower Conditioner
Beef Jerky
When I got home from work, I washed my hair and did my dreads - only 7 this time. They're messy as usual, but not to worry...I have hats and bandannas for that very reason.
I'm now doing my self-medication of gothing up. There are conditions. I'm also restarting Induction. Two weeks. Period. Today is Day Two. I'm going to work out tonight since the weather's cool...don't know how long it will last, so I need to take advantage of it.
The point of this all is that I have four months to look fabulous. It can be done, but it's going to take serious work on my part. I don't necessarily want to have or need an entirely new wardrobe by then, but there should be a marked difference in my appearance from last year. (Truth be told, there already is, but I want people to stop and make sure that's really me.) I'm still blubbery, and that needs to go away.
In the meantime, I have asked for help in a lot of areas. I asked for a refreshing of the Spirit, and also for a new desire to give. It's more blessed to give than to receive, right? Well, I've been giving all this time and haven't felt very blessed. I've been giving *grudgingly*...because I've felt forced into it. I want to give because I want to, and naturally, desire, nay, expect, to receive the blessings promised because of it. I don't see anything wrong with this - a promise is made, and that's an exercise in faith that the promise will be fulfilled...provided I do my part.
So that's where I am for today...